Of course it wouldn’t be. Right? I mean my purpose for living isn’t found in what tasks I do on the job. Right?
I thought it was. I became depressed when I left what I thought was the job of my dreams. It had everything I wanted, but of course it didn’t. I left because something was missing.
I flew out of bed every morning excited to face the day. I couldn’t wait to get to work and hated to leave. Why?
- I was a change agent. Everything was being built and changed. Perfect.
- I helped people. We served the community and I worked with donors, volunteers, staff, and the public. My day was filled with connecting to people. Yes!
- I fit in some administrative detail work. I like a fair amount of this work. I like to dig deep into spreadsheets and paper work. As long as I can get back to people.
- I was independent. Perhaps this was key. I worked for a board of director’s, but I had freedom to make my own schedule, come and go as I pleased, and no one stood over my shoulder micro-managing my work.
- I had purpose. This part gets tricky, but at the time a large part of my life was wrapped up in this job. I was proud of that. The sun rose and set on my being able to help people and meet their needs. Of course I neglected myself to the point of exhaustion and my family suffered, but that’s ok! I had purpose.
Take that away and what do you have? A mid-life crisis. Three years of continuous change. You know all the big stuff that can change in your life? It changed. I ended up a shriveled mess. So what do we do? We look for purpose. We go on the hunt. I am going to find my purpose. I am going to find it in the next job that I have. I had it before and I will have it again!
When I left my dream job I thought I lost my purpose, but actually I lost it when I took the job. Purpose is not found solely in a job. It’s not found in tasks. It comes from within. I lost my true purpose the moment I let a job become my reason for living. The moment we realize that is the moment we can truly determine our purpose in life.
It’s Not a Set of Tasks
My purpose for living is to connect with people and help them. I am a change agent. I am all about reviewing processes and making them better. I like to dig into spreadsheets and get knee deep in paper work. I am independent. I have purpose. My purpose is not found in the tasks that I do every day, but in how I do them. My purpose is found in being who I am and living that out in every situation. It’s found in being this person in the totality of my life not just in my job.
I see now. I can connect with people at work, at home, online and in the community. I can be a change agent at any job I have. I can be my own change agent. I can improve processes at work, home and at school. I have plenty of paper work to do at my current job. My independence drives me to try new things, go on new adventures, and meet new people. It’s not something I save for the 9-5.
The things is my purpose should have never been found in an organization. Why limit my purpose to a specific job or career path? I am a human being. I am much more than a limited set of tasks. I am a whole being and to limit my purpose to a job is a tragedy. That’s what I did before. I made the 9-5 my whole life and it shouldn’t have been that way. It was a part of my life. An important part. I am thankful the dream job is over because now I can see who I really am as a whole person and can work on developing my purpose throughout my entire life.
More to come later……